Trial and Error

Sigh*

     I was trying the new video feature of Instagram since I couldn't doze off (again, I overslept! ^_^). I literally did like 33 tries saying the same thing and singing the same thing all over again. I was trying to do a partial cover of Natalie Imburglia's TORN. I played the guitar till my fingers felt numb due to the growing calluses. Errr. How i hated to know that my first attempt in posting an instagram video can be flushed down the toilet bowl. And worst, I looked like one crazy B*tch trying to film a video that would only reveal my first and last pose before I get to post it. I couldn't figure out how to play with the length of the post that usually said I needed to reach a certain line bar. Gah, such an idiot! I hope I figure this out soon so I could do covers on Instagram :)

PS: This is also my first attempt to blog using my iPhone rather than the PC and I have to say, at least this didn't disappoint me. And yeah, it's more comfy here :)

WRAPPING IT UP!

     So much for making up for my loss, I carry with  me a very good news. Indeed my life  has changed last July 08, 2013, 10:43am. That's when I received a life-changing call from my friend, Chynne. She was like "14181 SHAMSUDDIN, FATIMA HALIL" and I was like "WTH?" because I was in the middle of a very good sleep (excuse me for being a fatty 'cause yeah I'd pig too much on sleep  than food) then, finally, It made sense to me, the things she just said. But then I refused to conclude, I waited for her to tell me more and she said "RN   ka naaaaah!", just like that my tears started to  fall. People around me got alarmed, they thought I was receiving a bad news. I was in a state of hysteria and I  just blurted out to them "NURSE NA AKO!!!" their mouth fell open then in a few seconds they started to congratulate me, one by one. Still everything was a blur to me, given the fact that Chynne was the only one to inform me, I never intended to question her but I was in a state of awe that I couldn't really take in that fact. I waited for few more calls and texts and not a second was wasted because texts and calls came quickly right after I hung up on her. Then to see for myself I checked on the internet and asked my cousins to do the same so I could get the benefit of the doubt. It was real I said to myself. It just happened so fast and in an unexpected  time. All I can say now is ALHAMDULILLAH (Thank God) and YESSSSS, TO ALLAH S.W.T be all the Glory! I can't say anything more now. Another chapter of my book has opened and I am yet to take another milestone. I am now FATIMA H. SHAMSUDDIN, RN, and I am living my dream :)

OOTD, They Say

   Blogs contain more of these today because it came out to be more of fashion-centered than personal, nowadays. I think I gotta transcend too. Just want this old blog to look like the new ones. :P So here's my fair share of the OUTFIT OF THE DAY fevah! :))

DOING THE "CATCHING UP" :)

     And finally, after a long hiatus, I am back on the blogosphere, baby! There are just so, so many things that transpired while I was away and I believe, I have missed out on you too. Well, you can't excuse me now because I have all the time in the world. Instead of making a lengthy post to make up for my loss, I decided to just show you pictures that would explain everything. In that manner, you won't have to glue your butts for so long on the chair and get butt sores. Yah ready? Here it goes! :)

Typical review day :)

Inspirational messages before my Nursing Licensure Exam

some mundane night when I decided I needed to pamper my nails

Those review days at MNRC. How I miss these people. They're like family to me.

one of my lasts as a student nurse. :)

Got rewarded for topping the comprehensive exam 4 :)

yes, I'm human too. I got sick and needed these.

one destressing day with my cousin and her BFF. How pizza makes me happy, I don't know.

 Became a recipient of the University wide JOURNALISM AWARD.

 Review Notes...

Had to maintain rapport with these to pass the NLE

Gennee and I during the Baccalaureate Mass. 

One goofy day with my Best friend

Sir Dindo de Guzman, my Med Surg lecturer :) I swear he's so hot that I got to kiss him on the lips. Yes you read it right, I kissed my lecturer! :)

The seat plan for the two life-changing days.

Cramming 2 days before the NLE 'cause I never gave a damn when I had all the time to study. 

Went out with Gigi on her Birthday :)

 Yeah, I just hate my graduation pictures so here's to show you that I already graduated, received 5 medals and more awards. But these didn't make me happy because I had no one to hang these medals on me.

Carmie gave me pencils for the boards that I actually used and I have to say, they were lucky bunch of pencils :)

longer and lighter shade of hair and hair color :)

 Celebrated Jannie's birthday with her. She's an awesome blogger, a twin sister to me and more. :)

Got crazy over this NBA's season. The games were such a thrill. wooh!

Cramming again. :)

With sir uhmmm oh em gee I forgot.

with Atty. Carreon :)

Jannie and I, post-NLE :) I sure don't look anxious but the truth is I was.

Had my first and last magazine published and put the curse to a halt at last :)

With sir Biluan and his mutant powers (he claims to have them).

One night of motivation.

Post-NLE, I finally got to eat real food.

When I topped the comprehensive exam.

Left my laundry unattended for the whole duration of the review. Good thing, I had enough clothes to last me at least 2 months. HAHA.

and lastly, it's frap dayyyy! :) yay!

DISTRACTED. LOST. AMBIVALENT. 

At some point in the day I get too excited, too giggly, too euphoric then at the other I wonder why I can't seem to find the reason why I feel such, then there comes a turning point where I start to become quiet in a corner, reminiscing, missing people, hating, grieving and all that negative feeling that could invade my sanity. No, I am not a BIPOLAR, I am much aware of what is happening to me and the shift of moods that embraces me. What I hate about it is that it is too overwhelming, too controlling that I can't seem to tell what's with me. If I were to define myself, I would not even be able to tell a particular adjective that could best describe me. The year rushed in so fast, so many things happened that I don't know where I stand, and what has become of me. I am lost, uncertain and distracted by something I can't even put to words. I hope I'll find my sense of direction again...

Forgive me for just ranting. I missed my solace, this place, this blog. This is my only LOYAL friend where I can talk without being judged. :'(