DISTRACTED. LOST. AMBIVALENT. 

At some point in the day I get too excited, too giggly, too euphoric then at the other I wonder why I can't seem to find the reason why I feel such, then there comes a turning point where I start to become quiet in a corner, reminiscing, missing people, hating, grieving and all that negative feeling that could invade my sanity. No, I am not a BIPOLAR, I am much aware of what is happening to me and the shift of moods that embraces me. What I hate about it is that it is too overwhelming, too controlling that I can't seem to tell what's with me. If I were to define myself, I would not even be able to tell a particular adjective that could best describe me. The year rushed in so fast, so many things happened that I don't know where I stand, and what has become of me. I am lost, uncertain and distracted by something I can't even put to words. I hope I'll find my sense of direction again...

Forgive me for just ranting. I missed my solace, this place, this blog. This is my only LOYAL friend where I can talk without being judged. :'(