THiS GiRL

wait. for a moment. just for a moment. let your eye's read this. let your mind reflect on this and let your heart feel this. this is about a girl. a girl who has no direction in life. a girl who's hungry and thirsty for love, attention and appreciation.

as she closes her eyes each night, a teardrop ran down her innocent facade. it seems like there's no place for her to rejoice, laugh and conquer the world even for half a second. this girl is dying. she is filled with grief and thoughts of darkness. feel her. can you feel the pain?

this girl dreamt of a simple life. never did she ask for too much. people thought that she's got everything. yes, everything, except for life. life, for this girl is something valuable and transcendental. something obscure. this girl im talking about is trying to yell as loud as she can, scream her heart out and shout at people who try not to listen to her.

sometimes, she thought of killing herself. then killing the people who've hurt her. but nothing's changed from time to time. it's because people think that she's trying to authorize her own little thing so-called DRAMA. and she herself thinks that she's no where to be found. she really loves to talk, think and visualize things related to DEATH. but do you know the very first thing she fears? it is DEATH alone. she fears death for she's unprepared. although she wants to be prepared, she just cant prevail the pain. she's drowning even more.

dreams or shall i call nightmares keep haunting her. thoughts of the past, specifically, bad memories. memoirs in the hands of atrocious people. then again she thinks of KILLING. she thinks of war and wrathful doings.

because of this kind of life, she gets forced not to pray. but even if she doesn't pray, she never forgets that almighty one who gave her life. she's grateful for the pain and sufferings. this girl fell inlove. not once, not twice but a lot of times. still she can't find true happiness. guys gave her heartaches. then she said to herself, "i'll give my heart to my friends. i don't need boys. i need my friends now. my friends do not cause me a heartache but they do cause me a heartbreak. and im addicted to the PAIN" by that quote, i say that even this girl's friends weren't helping her. although there are few ones. still she's seeking for something. she doesn't even know what she wants. her life right now is in great turmoil.

this girl even tries to express. she tries to write the best thing she could just to filter even an inch of her emotion. but she cant. tell you what, this girl i'm talking about, her name is TIM.

xoxo,

TiM