How will you most likely react when all the happiness you had just yesterday turned out to be your nightmare today? What's with the paparazzi taking a picture of me and him walking together all soaked in rain? i mean, why do people deprive me of my happiness through intruding in moments they aren't supposed to be intruding? i mean, that was my moment with him. and just like scaring off a stray dog or cat, it was exactly what they did to HIM. now he's scared to be near me, scared to be talked about and scared to be in controversies and issues all because of one stupid photo. the photo wouldn't be any stupid, it could have been a sweet memorabilia if only it wasn't used as a laughing stock and an evidence of some so-not-true issues. what's even worse than being the last to see your own picture when you can't explain to people what was really behind that photo? just great.
then everything followed. it became worse. thanks to these people. now the friendship i've been trying to build in five months time went berserk. i hate him for thinking that i'm desperate or something. he lost his I.D and thought that i kept it. like why should i? then i said, those are all GAY stuffs. he shouted "SHUT THE FUCK UP BIATCH."
"you'll regret that you used the word BIATCH on me. i swear i'll make you feel miserable at best, you GAY PROSTITUTE!"
i have learned enough from my past experiences and known how a boy's perspective work, i am totally correct when my instinct tells me certain things. it's just that as a person who's inlove, i choose to love every single cell confined in his body, even his flaws and stupidity, all the same. i saw everything and was never blinded but i'm the one who's closing my eyes and trying not to fall into pieces and breakdown each time he hurts me. that's me when i'm inlove. very sensitive and vulnerable but dynamic and martyr. in the end, no one likes me when i'm mad 'cause they know they'll be done for. they know very well how i could become their downfall. i'm very much ready to get hurt and suffer, only when it's meant to be that way. Once i know that i'm taken advantage of and abused, then that's a whole lot of different story... DIFFERENT. STORY.
then everything followed. it became worse. thanks to these people. now the friendship i've been trying to build in five months time went berserk. i hate him for thinking that i'm desperate or something. he lost his I.D and thought that i kept it. like why should i? then i said, those are all GAY stuffs. he shouted "SHUT THE FUCK UP BIATCH."
"you'll regret that you used the word BIATCH on me. i swear i'll make you feel miserable at best, you GAY PROSTITUTE!"
i have learned enough from my past experiences and known how a boy's perspective work, i am totally correct when my instinct tells me certain things. it's just that as a person who's inlove, i choose to love every single cell confined in his body, even his flaws and stupidity, all the same. i saw everything and was never blinded but i'm the one who's closing my eyes and trying not to fall into pieces and breakdown each time he hurts me. that's me when i'm inlove. very sensitive and vulnerable but dynamic and martyr. in the end, no one likes me when i'm mad 'cause they know they'll be done for. they know very well how i could become their downfall. i'm very much ready to get hurt and suffer, only when it's meant to be that way. Once i know that i'm taken advantage of and abused, then that's a whole lot of different story... DIFFERENT. STORY.
1 comments:
Daring to even hurt you that way doesn't make him deserving of owning your love. It was immature. Very.
He probably still needs more of Love 101 classes before leveling up from Gay Prostitute to Man. Currently, he's on the brink of becoming Gay Lord of Prostitutes.
Ignore the imbecile. Love him or not, he doesn't deserve your mature sense of compassion.
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